Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hello Dear Friends,

I am writing you today because it has been such a long time. I miss you. I celebrated my 26th birthday this past Tuesday. Let me just say that it wasn’t what I was hoping for. This internship has gotten the best of me, and I fell apart on my birthday. Justin was so very kind and surprised me with some shoes I have been wanting, flowers, and a beautifully written card. It was a nice surprise, but in the midst of this internship I emotionally could not walk one more step ahead. Something happened the morning of my birthday that was the breaking point for me where tears flowed and flowed. I got a lecture from my preceptor and my boss. Let me just say that my bosses words are never to build you up, but to make you aware of all your flaws and failures. A past intern told me that their goal is to tear you down and beat you up until you break into a million pieces. And that’s what I did. Honestly though I am so glad I finally cried. I feel much better and have much more peace. I have been dragging lately, depressed, and tired. The cry rejuvenated me. All in all, the birthday ended with a nice night out with my lady friends. They were very encouraging and supportive! Justin was not around on my birthday because for his birthday I got him a U2 ticket in which there show was playing on my birthday. I missed him and it would have been much better if he was around, but I am thankful that I do have the bestest friends ever to love on me, support me, and encourage me.
So, um, Happy Birthday to Me!


Oh Dear said...

Ah Erica....hang in there darlin'! May I recommend you have another birthday this year! They do it in golf why not birthdays. Maybe you can get another pair of shoes out of Justin.

Kristen said...

Oh man, that just sounds brutal. I remember Jason's birthday in the midst of his double masters program at UK and it was a bit reminiscent of this post. I will definitely keep you in my prayers and I totally agree with you, a good cry always makes things better!

Angela said...

I feel even more badly that I missed your birthday celebration now! When I first started teaching I did the same thing.. I would come home and just bawl every once in awhile. Toby loves when I bawl for some reason.. and so do I! It feels sooo good. So go ahead and bawl anytime you want to.. I support it!